Friday, December 23, 2011

i am jesus

birthdays are always a joyous occasion. it should be celebrated every year regardless of age.

it is my birthday today. i am now older than i was yesterday and the day before. the sun has already set and i'm enjoying the remaining hours of the most amazing thing that ever happened to christmas eve eve.

too many blessings to account and i am forever grateful for each one. nothing else can ever be compared to being surrounded by family and friends on your birthday.

crap. the emo side of me is coming out again. baah. birthday eve: laughter was enjoyed... copious amounts of beer was had... shots were had... delicious food was had... more merriment was had... photos were taken... gifts were exchanged... pitchers kept coming... more laughters were shared... it was a highly excellent night! the morning time was pretty epic (yeah douche, i still say 'epic') as well. too much birthday morning fun. there are videos. oh and this needs a special mention: jodie was nicer to me too.

dude, i have the most amazing friends and bestfriends! i ask myself sometimes what did i ever do to be surrounded by these bozos. oh yeah drugs. hahaha. count your friends. they are blessings.

my adorable parents, thank you for consummating your love in spring 1985.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011


had an excellent time with my family today. it's my early birthday supper and it was superb. much needed family pleasantry. i am humbled and blessed to have still have them.

i gave them their christmas presents tonight as well. coz it is freakin normal to give gifts when you're celebrating your birthday.

early-late twenties in 3 days. yowza!

happy and content.


with the death count nearing to a devastating 1000, and about 52 (or more) people missing, we are once again called to help.

typhoon sendong came. crazy flashfood at 2-3 in the morning. no electricity. they can barely see anything. come morning, vehicles piled on top of each other...dead bodies everywhere. bodies of those who were helplessly braving the strong water current. children, men, women, you name it.

my heart goes out to everyone in iligan and cagayan de oro. those two beautiful provinces are now covered in mud, water, and people crying out for our help. i'm encouraging everyone to donate. we are more than lucky to not be in their position right now. but can you imagine if we are?

click for info on how and where to donate: philippine red cross

thank you in advance and have a wonderful christmas!

Monday, December 12, 2011

god bless

my hand almost fell off from writing christmas cards last night. halfway through them, something hit me. i wasn't writing "god bless!" on them (coz i usually do). it got me thinking, did i stop believing? did my subconcious stop believing in god? is this the agnostic me? should i go back and write it?

just recently i've accepted a huge responsibility in my church. and it terrifies me. when my grandma passed away in september, i questioned that thing called life. how i'm living mine and if there's more for me. i felt like i'm wasting away. i still question my existence more often than usual. so i guess maybe saying yes to what my church is asking of me would help eh? through this, i could probably touch somebody's life. make an impact, religiously or not.

i am not a jesus freak. i am not a role model. i'd kill myself if i tell you to follow me. i am not perfect. i have my fair share of wrong doings, maybe more. maybe more than i myself is aware of. i will never push my beliefs on you. honestly, sometimes i don't even know for sure where i stand when it comes to believing in god. but this is me. most of the time i just need to have someone bigger than anything i know to put my faith on. most of the's god. that fact calms me down.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

twenty days

the weekend happened. even monday felt like the weekend. yeah, no shit.

3-way birthday party on saturday was a mighty success! i had a shot and a pint of beer...multiplied by like 10. teehee! it was a great night with friends. i never thought celebrating your birthday 20 days early is gonna be that awesome.

and then monday happened. i fucking hate mondays to the core. if i could, i'd strangle it to death and then stab it with a machete and then slowly glide a hacksaw on its skin. it is, whatever it is is, what you make of it. yeah totally turned it around.

...showed up at work the next morning wearing the same clothes from the day before. fuuuu!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

no standing

i broke an annual trip this year. no, not california. never california. never california coz that'll be very very unacceptable. i left my heart in san francisco? yeah wonder that.

it's new york city. i didn't see nyc at all this year. a lot of people say new yorkers are rude. those people are
wrong. for the last 3 years that i have been visiting THE city, i've only (so far) encountered 1 rude new yorker. she's racist too. but whatever.

"you shouldn't let people like that ruin your fun."

after that incident, me and my bestfriend went to wall street and grabbed the charging bull's cold iron balls. glorious.

no "no standing" signs for me this year. nah, i'm not bitter. not even to the slightest. 2011 has been full of surprises. one more month of whatever-is-there-to-come-my-way. then i'd be the happiest to say "it's been a grand humbling year of ups and downs. i'm still in repair but i'm learning."

Monday, November 28, 2011

tito and tita

growing up filipino, we were taught to be respectful of our elders. hence, i call my parents' friends 'tito' and 'tita' (filipino words for 'uncle' and 'auntie.' they're derived from the spanish words 'tio' and 'tia') even if we're not related to them by blood. same with my own friends' parents. i call them auntie and uncle too instead of mr. and mrs. forbes. otherwise, i'd feel disconnected and awkwardly strange and disrespectful. i don't know why. maybe it's my upbringing.

we don't have any blood relatives here in edmonton. but we have an abundance of extended family that i happily call my aunties, uncles, and cousins. with the holidays creeping its way in, they are the closest thing to blood family that we could have.

we are blessed.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

you have a heart and a nose

today, our pastor talked about affirmation in his sermon. it's a very simple thing to do. everybody has their own flaws and ugliness and what have yous. focus on the good on people. the truth in them.

grab opportunities to affirm somebody, especially the ones close to us, and wait for what difference it'll make.

oh btdubs, you have a beautiful soul. you are loved.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

mean it

you know when people say "i love you" for the sake of just saying it? well damn, the next time you say "i love you," mean it. let the person you're saying it to know that you genuinely mean it.

life is too goddamn short for blah i love yous.

Friday, November 11, 2011

11/11/11 - a hitRECord affair

a hitRECord collaboration i contributed to. pam, mad props for doing this.

it's very interesting and amazing to know what other people are wishing for. i'm glad to be a part of an intelligent and caring generation.

i wish to stay happy. what about you?

Monday, October 10, 2011

pay forward

a lot of things to be thankful for this year. enumerating them on a blog will never amount to how humbling they are.

for the most part, i am thankful for being loved back, unmeasurably, by the ones that matter to me the most.

my cup sure does run over.

paying it forward...

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Sunday, September 11, 2011


"that absolutely shows how strong of a mother she is. she didn't want you to see her take her last breath. she went in peace. she just closed her eyes."
those were kuya edgar's words to my aunt emma who flew back to england on that monday morning. mamang passed away in the afternoon of that same day.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011


en route to manila - my playground for the first 19 years of my life...the place where i've met the people that i'm still very good friends with up to this very minute. and i feel nothing but pain.

i have this row all to myself. row 54, seats A, B, and C. having this much space icarb enclosed area gives me time to think. time to process and prepare myself for what i would call the absolute worst thing i have to endure so far.

she's 90. she was in the hospital for about 2 months. pneumonia and then complication after complication. they discharged her 2 weeks ago because she was getting better. everything is being arranged for the recovery road. we thought she really was getting better. thoughts can lie.

within 5 hours upon getting the unfortunate news, flights were booked. my phone went off at 4 in the morning. i got the news by way of twitter. 2 tweets that included the word "condolence" in them from friends who care deeply about my family.

"fuck. oh my god. holy fuck. shit. fucking shit."

those were the only words that my brain could command my lips to open to.

"my grandma is gone."

all i could do was lay there in darkness. i wanted to drown. i didn't know i could feel such pain. luckily, i have my bestfriend next to me. she was very helpful and consoling. i don't know what i'd do without her.

at that very moment, memories of mamang (grandma) came rushing to me. she was never your typical doting grandma who bakes you cookies and makes you quilts for christmas. nope. and yet not one of her 26 grandchildren complained about that fact ever. she loved and cared for us in her own way. nobody knows really if she favored any of her grandchildren because none of us felt unloved. however, i can still remember my mom telling me a story of how mamang would tell the other kids to not touch the mangoes coz she's saving them for me.

when mamang used to have chickens, every sunday morning that we're visiting her, she would call on those chickens with this chickenly something sound that she makes. for us grandkids, that means one thing..."time to get up and start doing the house chores!" we all hated it. those mango leaves were total pain to get rid of off her backyard. we all complained and mumbled and yet we'd all still do it. the reward? beach time for 4 whole hours!

on monday evening, i checked facebook. i wanted to see what my cousins changed their status message to. everyone wrote something different. and from those, you can tell what kind of relationship each of her grandkids had with her.

i asked my sister, ailee, if she cried when she first heard about mamang's passing. she said it made her sad right away. and then eventually the thought of mamang not being there anymore made her even more sadder. it kills her, she said.

mamang is a pretty cool grandma to joke around and have fun with. she wasn't perfect but she was more than enough for us. i love the fact that she was different in her own little way. she may be stubborn at times but we all loved her for it. never will i ask for another grandma.

goddamn it, just typing 'was' instead of 'is' is breaking my heart.

i will miss you so much, mamang. can't wait to fistbump with you again. in that that bright morning...someday...

nothing but love.

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what i would've tweeted: HKG - MNL

what i would've tweeted: HKG - MNL

- good gawd. there are kids behind me. and they are painfully obnox.

- luckily, this flight is only less than 2 hours long.

- i'm still on my way to manila and i already feel like i have gained 10 lbs.

- so fucking tired.

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Tuesday, August 30, 2011

what i would've tweeted: YEG-YVR

what i would've tweeted: YEG-YVR

- someone is still on their phone....someone is still on their phone!! *looks around* .....mother, hang up!

- shit! i forgot my meds!

- 1987. that's the password to person on seat 12C's iPad. #notcreepy

- my eyes have been too heavy since last night. will now attempt to clock in some snooze.

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Thursday, August 11, 2011


i thought i emailed myself all the notes on the phone that i got replaced last weekend.

apparently, i did not.

3 songs, 1 unfinished, 2 poems, 2 solid "muzak to download" lists, travel dates, list of nyc restaurants to try, and more things that i'm trying to recall.


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Tuesday, August 9, 2011

was just informed that...

...i'm going to be an aunt (again)! teehee!

one of my bestfriends of god knows how long is having a baby! i am beyond happy and excited for them! this is their first. it's more than accurate to say that they'll be amazing at parenting.

i hope it's a boy.

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Sunday, July 24, 2011

i don't wear heels for nobody

last night, we took tina out for her stagette. it was fantastic! it's so nice to be amongst friends that you don't see often enough anymore. but most importantly, it's great that everyone came out for tina. one of our friends even drove her 6 months pregnant self from athabasca. lol. lisa (the one with the sexy bedroom voice) from red piano took care of us superbly well. totally tipped her good. kinda awkward though when she asked for my name and i had to explain it to her.

good food, good alcohol, too much dancing, sore feet. i love it!

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Monday, July 18, 2011


my parents are flying to los angeles next week for my uncle allen's 50th. he's my dad's bestfriend. they've been friends for over 33 years now. they have each other's backs since day one.

i'm in awe of how they've managed to stay friends all these years...most specially during those times when there's no such thing as facebook. from raising their own families and moving from here and there all over the world and not seeing each other for years, their friendship stayed the same. losing touch is very foreign to them.

over the years, i became really picky with the people who i keep close. learning from my past? mos def. i have friend friends. i also have those beyond amazing friends who i can fully trust my future only child with. you know what i mean? man, i wish the friendships i have now will last, if not longer, just as long as 33 years. that'll be uber sweet.

we're very lucky to have all these different means of communication around us. u.ti.lize. text your hombres. it'll mean so much.

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Sunday, July 3, 2011

what benefit?

my brain knows how to instantly shut down my attention for annoying people. i can stop paying attention in a blink of an ass.....or eye. but once i'm told what and when to observe a certain individual....oh boy....

doubt is screwed!!!

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Saturday, July 2, 2011

robin sparkles won!

canada day won. drank from 2:30 in the afternoon til about 1:30 in the morning. surprisingly, i wasn’t too hungover. thinking about the news i got from my doctor last year and the now? dude sire, my alcohol tolerance is on a high.

try the screamo version of mandy moore’s song “crush.” it’s good for the lungs and voicebox stuff.

beers. stuffed burgers. vodka. more beers.

also, on bended knee.

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Monday, June 27, 2011

something about unlonely nights

last night, i had one of the most amazing nights of my life. too epic for words. i spent the entire evening with jodie - the most bestest (is that word?) friend one could ever be blessed with. seriously, be jealous of me because i have her. teehee.

we started the night at our friend shauna's going away party. so sad that she's leaving...but still mad yays for her coz she's moving on to more greater things. all the best, shauna! (yep, that pinoy celeb style shout out just happened.) after our last hugs with shauna, we went to jodie's new crib (fuck yeah i said crib. do people still say crib?). this is uber exciting because now jodie has a mortgage to take care of. she's growing up more. the main reason i'm sleeping over was to help her unpack. that didn't happen.

ever had that moment when you feel very iffy about a drink and then when you put it in your mouth....bam! you have fireworks of delicious everywhere? that's exactly what happened to us! three olives root beer vodka. yeah buddy! we got drunk enough (actually a lot drunk) to do shauna's photo/video request. us doing sink shots.

and then we decided to chill in the tub. so fucking comfy! we sat there for over an hour. talked about life and stuff. had more alcohol. lady gaga played on repeat. had more alcohol. had a toast for the douchebags. got hungry and walked our assess to the the rain. walking in the rain sans umbrella was super fun. i can't remember the last time i frolicked in the rain. aside from food, we also bought a pack of smokes. neither of us smoke. we did last night though. so badass we shared a stick hahaha. took photos along the way...on the tree, behind the tree, with the road warning sign, with one leg wrapped around the light post, with the questionable object covering thing on the sidewalk, etc. yeah it's pretty low key. bwaharnot!

i loved last night so much i want to get it pregnant! for serious! jodie and i, even if it's only the two of us hanging out? man, we always always have a blast. though she makes fun of me excessively, she's still my bestfriend. i'm so humbled and blessed and honoured to call whore. have her in my life.

"we shouldn't let people who aren't worth it get to us.
focus on people who love and accept us for who we are,
and shower them with love and concern that they deserve."

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

what i would've tweeted: LAX - YEG

what i would've tweeted: LAX - YEG

- they muffled the french part of the flight announcements. iLOL.

- if you keep on pushing you'll get the truth. or get punched in the face.

- apple juice.

- hahaha. i wonder if there's a that'll be a sell-out.

- i see snowy mountaintops.

- claudine's mom made me tuna sandwiches for my trip back. she's awesome! yes, person next to me, i have delicious in my mouth.

- breakout kings season finale tonight. as if i really watch it.

- highly functioning.

- tulog manok.

- alright, home now. i miss the heat heat.

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what i would've tweeted: SJC - BUR

what i would've tweeted: SJC - BUR

- this is only an hour flight. i had beer for breakfast. i will live.

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Tuesday, May 24, 2011

what i would've tweeted: FLL - SFO

what i would've tweeted: FLL - SFO

- back of the plane.

- girl in front of me got told (big time!) by another passenger for being on the phone still as we are pulling away from the gate. embarrassing.

- forgetting sarah marshall is on.

- beautiful sunset is much more beautiful up here. i wish you have the same view.

- i did not take a single tablet for 4 days. now my phalanges are hurting...bad #onmedscanbeabitchsometimes

- my beverage of choice while en route? apple juice....unless wine is free.

- not peeing again. this fact isn't boding well with my watching of criminal minds on board.

- i'm really zoning out right now. zzzzz....

- criminal minds marathon!

- this flight is really taxing.

- the view of the bay area lights is always lovely to me.

- we are swerving. on the runway. what??

- hello, san francisco!

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Friday, May 20, 2011

what i would've tweeted: ORD - FLL

what i would've tweeted: ORD - FLL

- flight attendant: "please turn off everything with an 'i' now".

- o'hare airport.....A+! it's up there with SFO, JFK and singapore international in my book. man, i could only wish for YEG to be as nice.

- heathrow, you have til 2012 summer olympics. impress me. #yes #coziamthesolereasonforthesummerganes #conceitedtweet #tellmeimpretty

- just took photos of the clouds. they look much more gorgeous from up here. hence, i book the window seat most of the time.

- reason #2 for my love of window seats: i can hold my pee for hours. once on a vancouver-korea flight, for 10-11 hours, i didn't use the toilet at all.

- throw some mad props too coz me and my sister ate A LOT during that flight. bibimbap your life!

- i don't want to fall asleep. it's a full flight. me don't wants to get...incepted.

- direct tv entertainment on continental. yeah it sucks. they'll just make you salivate. 6-8 dollars for entertainment. capitalism! buy a dildo!

- metric and me.

- the pizza smell from seat 31F is overpowering the smell of my white castles. #winning

- cross check yourself before you wreck yourself. what?

- can i just say how pleasantly awesome it is to finally meet @LOPchelle? fun tiny times!

- aannnddddd.....i'm now sneezing. WTF?!

- come on baby play me something like "here comes the sun."

- *looks out the window* there's swamp everywhere. this is florida for me?


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Thursday, May 19, 2011

what i would've tweeted: YEG - ORD

what i would've tweeted: YEG - ORD

- these old ladies are LOUD! and there's 7 of them. they look like those people on those carnivale cruise ads. it's fucking 7:15 am!!!

- they replaced the "no smoking" light signs with "turn off your electronics." i took this as...."go light one!"

- ra ra riot and me.

- my meds are in my check-in luggage. shite. i kinda need them. oh well. i'll live. or will i?

- reading about alex honnold and free solo climbing. i wish i had the skill and courage to do what he does.

- i could hold on if you learn to compromise.

- ay putang ina! learn the art of pulling yourself up!! stop tugging the back of my seat!!

- lady next to me just took over about 1/4 of my chair with her left thigh. yep, i took a photo. go to my flickr page.

- going to meet @LOPchelle in about an hour! excitezzzzz!

- i look like shit, not THE shit.

- and there's a reason for me not being able to look like a breathing human. was supposed to leave for the airport at 5 am for my 7 am flight....*drumroll*....i woke up at 5. oy.

- hold still, bladder. we're almost there.

wait for the ORD - FLL one.

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Monday, May 16, 2011

slave lake fire

fire destroys 40% of slave lake.

about 900 people lost their homes and everything else. it's so heartbreaking what they are going through right now.

relief efforts have already started. do your part. the citizens of slave lake have nothing else but our help and support. 

here are some ways to help:

  • for monetary donations, you may send them via
  • if you're with telus, customers can text "REDCROSS" to 30333 to donate $5. 


never think that you can't make a difference in these people's lives. every little bit of help counts. little helps can grow into much much bigger helps. y'know what i mean? please do your part and support. 

you will be blessed in 10 folds, i promise you. if not 10...20!

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Friday, May 6, 2011

26 years

growing up in an imperfect and yet full of laughter and loving and accepting home has made all the difference.

happy 26th year, my more than generous parents!

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Tuesday, April 19, 2011

now my feet won't touch the ground

now my feet won't touch the ground.

people assumed many different interpretations to this song. i have two. both ends on the note that we will all, eventually, become invincible.

one: the person in the song is goig through death. he's asking his friends/family to let go of him as he is so sure that he's headed to a much more better place. a place where he'll no longer feel pain and suffering no matter what.

two: it's about someone who is too in love. "you wait a lifetime to be found." we all wait for that someone to find us. we all look for that someone. and when we do find that person, the feeling of elation is indescribable. you know you are both bound to give everything to each other. "rocks await. swoop down from the sky and catch me like a bird of prey." hurting won't even matter.

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Tuesday, April 5, 2011

tell me your favorite things...

here are the responses:


peggy: "the feel and smell of a brand new container of play-doh, and the look and smell of a brand new giant box of crayola crayons."

jai: "a bee sting, a dog bite...could remind you of your favorite things."

michelle: "kisses, laughs and wine (not necessarily in that order)."

angel: "raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens. bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens. brown paper packages tied up with strings."

drew: "booze."

erika: "you =)"

darin: "vodka and my BFFs."

ros: "chocolate and coffee."

darci: "wine, specifically."


this is one my ultimate favorite things...that feeling you get when you lay on your back after a long day of swimming in the ocean and you can still feel the push and pull of the water. good.


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Wednesday, March 23, 2011

surprising people

"people can surprise you. you get used to thinking of them one way, stuck in their roles,

they are what they are. and then they do something that shows you there's all this depth

and dimension that you never knew existed." --mitchell, modern family


almost every morning, i pick up breakfast at the tim's by my work building. and almost every morning, i see this regular customer. he usually just sits there and enjoy his hearty breakfast. he didn't look grand nor friendly. on monday morning, a homeless (i assume he is coz he looked the part) person came in. out of nowhere, mister regular customer walks up to him with a bag of food and a big cup of coffee. the look on the homeless face was priceless. that is something you don't see everyday. let alone on a monday.


i was taken aback by what i saw. then it got me thinking......have i done enough for somebody else? how many times have i shunned the oppotunity to help a stranger? how many random acts of kindness am i willing to give for the rest of my life? have i been very nice to people? shown pure kindness and love to my family? accepted my friends for who they are? am i good enough? i don't know. there's a lot to learn from people. people who are different from what i know i am.


i need to do something radical. something way out of my comfort zone. something i think is beyond me.

must. start. planning.

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in more ways than i could think of

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

where are we?

7 Levels of Relationship:

- surface (general info you'd share with anyone)

- facts and reports (more specific but not private)

- opinions and judgments (your thoughts on a wide range of subjects, including religion and morality)

- feelings (your personal emotional status and how you react to various circumstances)

- vulnerability (admitting your faults to another)

- intimacy (in-to-me-see; they can tell you about faults you do not see in yourself)

- complete (total openness & trust)

the explanations for every level is pretty straight forward. whatever you have to do. the last level has to be earned. that is all.

where are we?

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Monday, March 14, 2011

what i would've style

here's another edition if "what i would've tweeted" but with a kick. why? coz it features....jodie! well our conversations. i know, lame eh? haha boom! and it's not from a plane. it's from....the pub!!!

ok so i spontaneously went out for dranks after work. my phone ran out of juice and couldn't tweet as much as i would've. so yeah, here...what i would've tweeted:

- i'm austronesian! damn it!

- fucking atheists.

- praise the lord.

- your mouth is dirty. your mouth supplies floating stuff for your beer.

- hehe twitter secrets.

fucking racist atheists.

- jerks. nobody wants to join us? fiiiiiine.

- drink my filth. DRINK MY FILTH!!!

- does the sun make me look like jesus drinking beer?

- idiots using drive-thru ATMs. *shakes my head* that's your people! she is not asian! that's 1-1 for chinks!

- fucking gay racist atheists.

- if you want to play footsie, just let me know. my legs may be short but....

- lick your beer.

- i know people who should definitely go look for a job.

- fucking jobless gay racist atheists.

- we're so very couple-y. our tongues are green.

- let's go on a trip! australia!

- #LBS2012 - wait for this epicness.

- not so pure now, am i?

- just coz i giggled about something doesn't mean i'm toying with the valuable info i just shared to you.

damn! hell no, i'm not going to post the ones that i'm not allowed to tweet. that's right, you goddamn wish you were there!

disclaimer: i don't hate atheists or gay people or any other race. act on whatever you see fit, i don't care. as long as you're not hurting anyone, go ahead. i won't stand in your way. if you really know me, i can be the most non-judging person you'll ever meet. i don't hate.

so that's me ending my monday on a good note. i always love spending time with jodie. she's the best! enjoy the rest of your week!

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Tuesday, February 22, 2011


so i saw the king's speech yesterday. i totally put a ring on it. coz y'know? i really liked it.

OMG movie quotes!

"shit! shit! shit! shit! shit! shit!"

"fuck! fuck! fuck! fuck! ass! fuckin ass! fuck! tits!"

"here's your shilling."

"you don't need to be afraid of the things you were afraid of when you're five."

"in this grave hour fuck fuck fuck bugger!"


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Monday, February 21, 2011

whilst riding the bus

as i type this, there is a little miss leaning on my shoulder right now. she's busy napping her 3 yr old head off. i'm a stranger to her as she is to me. she probably felt safe, i don't know. her mom asked if the little miss is bothering me. i readily said no. it's one of those little things y'know? i find this to be a peaceful and random blessing.

i will remember today.

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Thursday, February 17, 2011


this is episode 10 of mark cersosimo and michael capasso's "playing for pocket change" project.

playing for pocket change is a series featuring musicians playing on the streets and in the subways of new york city. often overlooked and ignored, we find out exactly who these people are and what makes them want to play in what is arguably the worlds strangest venue.

i'm really glad to have contributed something to this episode. shakerleg (mark nicosia) is most definitely one of my favorite musicians. he's very creative and talented and full of passion.

Playing For Pocket Change: Episode 10 from Mark on Vimeo.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

when twitter friends make a cameo

it's beyond odd and kinda creepy when people you know but have never met appear in your dreams.

last night, i dreamt about my mother getting her drink on. she was so hammered in the dream. the kicker? a) i don't have any recollection of her vodka-ing it up in real life. b) she got wasted with one of my twitter friends, nissa a.k.a. @APolishBeauty. they're second life bffs or something. when they were moths.

(pardon the lack of twitter page link as i'm posting this via mobile.)

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Monday, February 14, 2011

record song

the #grammys tweeting crowd were asking about the difference between the "record of the year" and "song of the year."

as per the

the record of the year award goes to the artists, producers, engineers, and mixers.

whilst, the song of the year award goes to the songwriters and the songwriters alone.


you're very much welcome.

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Wednesday, February 9, 2011

shower curtain

me: "i'm really glad you're telling me these things. this is more than healthy."

bff: "yeah. hey remember that one time when we shared a curtain-less bathroom? you we're showering as i do my #2?"

me: "that moment absolutely cemented our friendship, didn't it?"


is it may yet?

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Monday, February 7, 2011


this is not another drunken story...but i got nothing else to share at the mo' so yeah...meh.

saturday night, i went out with my dear friends jodie and nicki. yeppers, pissed drunk and all (i'm not very proud). i went home with a bruised knee coz i fell. i had no idea how it happened but was told that the falling was epic. jodie took my phone away coz i was calling long distance (much worse than drunk texting, i guess) and drunk tweeting things that make no sense at all. exhibit a:
drunken karaoke!!! and i don't think we'll go back to that place again. too much creepiness.

sadly, i'm no longer vomit free since 2009. *tear*

yesterday, i swore that there'll be no alchy for me til, at least, may. why may? i'll let you know soon.

i love my friends to the core.

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Tuesday, February 1, 2011


finally finished something that i've been meaning to lay for the longest time.


not sure where should i begin
been dying to write you something to sing
daintily i'll pen you a tune
a tune that will transcribe what is you

tell me where did i go wrong
turned around got nothing else, alone
when i loved you wholeheartedly
with nothing left even for the quarter of me

you're too good baby
you're too good and they bruise you easily

finished a verse, boxed with a rhyme
enclosed you with some powerful lines
been lied to but i'd rather not confront
a hiding place, i'll be a good friend to console
a good friend to console your soul

a bottle of you
to remind how ridiculously good you are, obviously you are
the kindest of all hearts
one must promise to never ever ever ever harm

you're too good baby
you're too good and yet they bruise you so easily

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Tuesday, January 25, 2011


...more like #notesfromsaturdaynight.

i went out for evan's birthday on saturday night. karaoke and beer and shots and beer.

i'm well aware that i was texting some people that night...more so when things started to spin non-stop.

now as i sit here and backtrack, oh dear.....

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Thursday, January 20, 2011

i know i'll have you tonight

i'll write the lyrics to the song that you'll cry over

after you're done, well you can call me in this number

you're feeling lost but you'll get there

i'm smiling with you coz i know, coz i know

i'll have you tonight

(thanks, aia)

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Sunday, January 9, 2011

the best of ideas come to me when i answer to mother nature's call

while i was doing my biz, a new potential song came to me. it's about a stupid-bad-mouthing-gift-whore-pos who, unfortunately, is related to me.

here's a part of it...

you, user friendly waste of skin
i can't believe i let you in
in that hell hole you call a home
collection of ceramic thrones

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Thursday, January 6, 2011

london, stop calling!

being in london time (still) is causing me sleep. since i came back, i'd wake up at around 3 in the morning which is really painful coz i don't need to get ready for work til about quarter after 5.

so this morning, instead of complaining, i decided to be a little productive. managed to finish a song (finally), write a poem, process a second poem, organize ny emails, and pay my credit card bills. surprise surprise, i still have money left after spending the holidays in europe.

i win!

(will blog about my trip soon...hopefully. when i get some more sleep)

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Tuesday, January 4, 2011

baby i'm here to stop your crying

so we're okay, we're fine

baby i'm here to stop your crying

chase all the ghosts from your head

i'm stronger than a monster beneath your bed

i'm smarter than the tricks played on your heart

we'll look at them together then we'll take them apart

adding up the totals of a love that's true

multiply life by the power of two

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Sunday, January 2, 2011

what i would've tweeted LHR-YEG

this is what i would've tweeted on my way to my dear edmonton.

- waiting in line at the @AirCanada check-in counter. very very taxing. they better not pull that 1 hr before flight leaves policy on us!

- flewran (new word? i think so!) from security to our gate coz the departure board says "AC899 flight closing" son of a bitch!

- should've purchased my cans of relentless in london when i had the chance. stupid stupid.

- i don't like this person i'm seating next to. i'm coughing. stop staring. you want aids? i'll give you tuberculosis!

- watching tbbt. BAZINGA!

- lunch. chicken and pasta with spinach (or some tasty leafy stuff. could be marijuana. who knows).

- now i know why everybody hated the new wall street movie.

- ......snooooooooooooze....

- i woke up just in time cream! and corn chips!

- in my dream, i was going out with carey mulligan. the girl can kiss!

- now watching going the distance. meh. it's alright. i still think justin long is a waste of skin.

- the only good thing about this movie is charlie day, jason sudeikus, and the boxer rebellion.

- shared a pen with the much better seatmate. declaration card time!

- snack time. chikie chi-chinese chi-chinese chicken wrap. and another bottle of white wine.

- i drink a lot when i'm 38,000 ft in the sky. most specially, when i'm not seated next to my mother.

- ...and another one.

- been meaning to watch this show rookie blue. now, i know why i didn't waste the time.

- ok that's a little harsh.

- 30 more mins til edmonton! looking forward to my own bed.

- do you laugh out loud on the plane? while watching a movie? that only you can see and hear? luda!

- landed! whaa whaaatttt!!!!!! can't wait to see my fajah!

i miss london....and paris. again on 2012!

london baby!

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