the wind can't blow in the same direction for each of us. if it (wind) leads us off track from where we want to go, we will always have that option of going back to our "manual." someone you trust and believe in. god...higher power...friend...therapist...what have you.
from my christian pov, our relationship with god varies. yes, there are plenty of laws. crazy laws. if you focus on that, you'll lose focus on far more important things. try not to align yourself with other people's christianity. i did that before and i was unhappy. your faith is your faith. we can't go on forcing people to stay on the same faith course that we are in. savour the freedom of having whatever kind of relationship that you wish to have with your god. it's between you and him. not between you and him and your susan blackwell. remember though, at the end of the day, only YOU can answer for yourself.
that's living, i guess.