i didn't realize i'd care as much as i do at this moment. trust me, i've accepted that the time will eventually come. i guess...i guess...i didn't really prepare myself for when it actually becomes official. which is now. that unfortunate feeling of disconnection that that person is no longer part of what you've always known as far back as when you learned how to walk. yes, that. it's upon me.
no hatred. no, no.
just more love and acceptance.